I met a beautiful soul yesterday. She came for a consultation about her hair, but of course that meandered into other topics. We discussed ways for her to improve her health and lose weight so that she could fit in the wedding dress of her dreams and help her husband-to-be to get on a healthier path. Then we got on one of my favorite topics.
She told me that she had recently been told by her very devoutly Christian fiance that Christmas didn't really have anything to do with Christ, showed her the scripture that speaks against having an "adorned" tree, and also told her of the "Pagan" roots of most Christian holidays. I sat almost having to physically hold myself down, because I love when people start down these types of paths. I know that if they continue that their may be tears, disappointment, and anger but at the end of it there will be a true salvation and awakening. I decided to just stay on the topic that she brought up as not to push to hard or fast. Then she said it! She said, "I just think that my pastor should have taught on this! We don't celebrate holidays at our church, but I think people need to know why. They need to teach us the truth!" Trying to hold my excitement, I calmly explained about truth being a slippery slope in this instance. Most people don't go to church to hear the truth. They go to be soothed from some painful something that has taken over their lives. Why do I say this? Simple. I say this because if you want to study the truth you will look any and everywhere for it, you won't limit yourself to one book, and you will seek it no matter what the cost. I explained that if her pastor started to give them whole truths, then they would start to seek and think, if they started to seek and think, they may realize that much of what they do is solely for the maintenance of the Pastoral lifestyle and based in fear rather than being for the love of God. They may also find that patriarchal beliefs tend to based in fear and control and thus will only take you so far, because to do anything beyond that will debase all that keeps you bound. I so wanted to get into a deep conversation with her, but I didn't want to freak her out, so I'll save that conversation for my cipher sistas and our wine. Instead I nonchalantly added the book Pagan Christianity to her book list.
When she was leaving I told her that I was excited about her path no matter where it takes her. I so enjoyed her company and am so happy that she was excited about all she left equipped to do. I can't wait to hear from her. You don't have to change the world, just love from the love you've been given and teach from what you have learned.
Friday, August 31, 2012
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Life Lessons...
Hurt feelings: Every month we have a movie night. We have a WONDERFUL time. I mean it is perfection. We watch cerebral African-centered movies or lectures, our children play together, we eat, and we eat some of the best vegan and vegetarian food you have EVER had. I look forward to it every month. Well, this month everything just went wrong that day. The vibration in my house was just wrong. I remember all I keep yearning for was sage. It was like sage was going to set everything right with the world. Needless to say, I didn't have any charcoal. Long story short, out of 8 people 1 person showed up. I was crushed. I had considered canceling anyway, because my day was already jacked up but I didn't want anyone to be disappointed. I didn't want to let anybody down, so imagine how let down I felt. This doesn't seem like such a big deal now, but I was genuinely hurt that day.
How could I have avoided all of that drama? I could have gone with my first thoughts and paid attention to what my intuition and vibration were telling me. When I was feeling like the vibration in my house was "off" I should have saged to see if that would have helped. I don't even cook while angry, so why would I invite people into a house where they usually find peace and comfort and have them be met with bad energy instead. If the sage hadn't worked then I should have canceled. The truth of it is that people are not nearly as dependent on my as I like to think they are. Nobody would have been in tears if I had canceled. They would have understood. I also learned that it's okay if I need a break from something. It's okay if I'm too tire and worn out. What will the movie night cipher say at my funeral if I run myself ragged? "Well, she never canceled movie night and that's why we loved her." No, because that is not important. I have learned that while it's okay to want the best for those I love, I can't offer them my best if I'm sick, tired, or worn-the-hell-out.
Importance of Sisterhood: We had a sista cipher once. Prior to that, about a year or two ago, I was one of those women that thought other women were catty, backbiting, and impossible to deal with. I had a true and abiding dislike for women. As I have traveled this road I have learned that the feelings that I thought were aimed at "those women" were really aimed at myself. Dr. Phil said it best. When you focus in on something that you can't stand about a person just say, "There is something about you that I don't like in myself." That was exactly it. Anyway, we had the cipher and it was supposed to be a meeting, but as women so often do, we all pulled what we needed. It was beautiful and for the first time I realized that Sistahood is of the utmost importance. We talked about all kinds of things and it felt good. I was safe. I could cry without being judged. I could be healed rather than trying to do all of the healing. We are going to do it again, but this time with wine. lol I love them, because they are my sistas. We don't talk all the time and I don't think we need to, but we are there when it's important to share tissues, hugs, wisdom, laughter, stories, and wine.
How could I have avoided all of that drama? I could have gone with my first thoughts and paid attention to what my intuition and vibration were telling me. When I was feeling like the vibration in my house was "off" I should have saged to see if that would have helped. I don't even cook while angry, so why would I invite people into a house where they usually find peace and comfort and have them be met with bad energy instead. If the sage hadn't worked then I should have canceled. The truth of it is that people are not nearly as dependent on my as I like to think they are. Nobody would have been in tears if I had canceled. They would have understood. I also learned that it's okay if I need a break from something. It's okay if I'm too tire and worn out. What will the movie night cipher say at my funeral if I run myself ragged? "Well, she never canceled movie night and that's why we loved her." No, because that is not important. I have learned that while it's okay to want the best for those I love, I can't offer them my best if I'm sick, tired, or worn-the-hell-out.
Importance of Sisterhood: We had a sista cipher once. Prior to that, about a year or two ago, I was one of those women that thought other women were catty, backbiting, and impossible to deal with. I had a true and abiding dislike for women. As I have traveled this road I have learned that the feelings that I thought were aimed at "those women" were really aimed at myself. Dr. Phil said it best. When you focus in on something that you can't stand about a person just say, "There is something about you that I don't like in myself." That was exactly it. Anyway, we had the cipher and it was supposed to be a meeting, but as women so often do, we all pulled what we needed. It was beautiful and for the first time I realized that Sistahood is of the utmost importance. We talked about all kinds of things and it felt good. I was safe. I could cry without being judged. I could be healed rather than trying to do all of the healing. We are going to do it again, but this time with wine. lol I love them, because they are my sistas. We don't talk all the time and I don't think we need to, but we are there when it's important to share tissues, hugs, wisdom, laughter, stories, and wine.
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Short and Sweet
Don't be scared to move forward. If you stand there frozen with fear and continue to do what's comfortable, don't blame anyone or anything else for your not achieving your goals.
"When you pray, move your feet." African Proverb (a future tattoo too btw.)
So I'm off of FB again. Why? Because I got shit to do. I need to move forward and live my dream. This is the second time I've started working toward my goal and simply put, I punked out. I had everything ready to go and got scared. Scared of what? I don't know. Scared of being rejected, scared of failure, scared everybody would hate it, scared of success. Just scared. Every big successful jump I've made in my life was preceded by a gut wrenching fear that kept me from proceeding for a while. This time, I'm going to move forward. I mean yes this is my second time around, but I'm not going to sit here and wallow in my fear forever like I normally do.
I'm going to pray AND move my feet.
"When you pray, move your feet." African Proverb (a future tattoo too btw.)
So I'm off of FB again. Why? Because I got shit to do. I need to move forward and live my dream. This is the second time I've started working toward my goal and simply put, I punked out. I had everything ready to go and got scared. Scared of what? I don't know. Scared of being rejected, scared of failure, scared everybody would hate it, scared of success. Just scared. Every big successful jump I've made in my life was preceded by a gut wrenching fear that kept me from proceeding for a while. This time, I'm going to move forward. I mean yes this is my second time around, but I'm not going to sit here and wallow in my fear forever like I normally do.
I'm going to pray AND move my feet.
Saturday, August 25, 2012
Thursday, August 23, 2012
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